In The Kite Runner, Amir thinks, "I wanted to be just like Baba and I wanted to be nothing like him." What does he mean?

Amir wants to be like Baba as a father in
several ways.

-He would like to command
respect as Baba always did because other people's approval is obviously very important
to Amir.

-He would like to be willing to sacrifice for his
child as Baba sacrificed for him.  While Baba does not seem to give up much for Amir in
the first 8 chapters of the novel, when he leaves Afghanistan, he sacrifices
everythingfor Amir (wealth, status, comfort, recognition, home,
etc.).

However, Amir certainly does not want
to emulate Baba's

-inability to show
approval toward a child who longs for it

-secrets which
harm his children (Hassan's true origin, Amir's feeling of
betrayal)

-emotional distance